Hurting Words...Helpless Feel...

"The splitting heartache that comes hurts more then anything else with all these words inflicted..."

Today is the 1st time i am starting on this blog page after much persuasion from my frenz..I decided to start on it and write wadever fustration and thoughts i have here..My ever deepest inner thoughts that no one knew...

Her message to me this morning only left me heartbroken recollecting all the bits and pieces that was left of me the day she left...

Her: " Why is all these coming only now..Have a great dae ahead..forget about me...

Me: " U noe i wnt 4get you..i wnt..perhaps u aldy find it too late..perphaps i realise it 2 late.yes. i did...bt still, i wana do it coz tis is wad i reall i felt.."

Her: " You haven even tried..why say you wont..if you really dont try..i make you forget me..no point clinging onto the past when everything is too late.

Me: " Y do u wan to kip insisting me 2 4get you ..u noe it deep in nt jus my heart tt we both wnt..yes, it is late..does that mean we shldnt n cnt try animre...y cnt we give each another another chance 2 work it out..

Her: " I dont trust trust realtionshiip animre! i will forget you, who say i wont..

Me: " U hurt me with ur words..yes, u dun trust me animre ..im e one who kips clinging 2 u .unable to giv u the trust 2 even rebuild our r/s together.. i cnt force you 2 have the trust in me..bt i wish you will..my strength alone is nt even enuff..

Her: " Its meant to hurt you..there's no more hope in between us..get it? just let go..you dont used to msg me, so stop messenging me. Ive kept everything to myself and i think you should too and stop ruining my work by your suprise sms//go ecp..go lo..ive stop gg dere even since before we broke up..you go there for what? To reminisce the times?

Why is it that humans are always that contradicting..Why is it that you know you still love that person yet you dare not to love just bcuz of a failed attempt once..Why is everything just so unexplainable.. My heart shattered the moment she left me..Who can understand that..I am never gonna be the same ME anymore..for a very simple reason..Bcuz it is her...

No one can replace the memories that we once shared and hold together..Girl, if you can hear me, no one can replace the love that we had too..It belongs to us and us alone..The thought of you holding me in yours arms, those tender whisper, those caring eyes, those assuring hugs are all gone..

Sometimes how i just miss you so...just so much..Girl, *hugs* i wish you happiness...

Memories & your everlasting footprints will stay embedded in my heart forever....