Knocking off...Finally..Lessons & Thoughts again...

A hard day is finally over...waiting for lesson...waiting...just made me think yet again...


Our Song that comes into my mind at this point of time...(Mei you Ni De Mei Yi Tian) - Xu Jie Er

It is finally knocking off time..a terrible day at work..Work & work & more work..the work just seem never ending..just seem so overloaded..So sianz..Why do i feel so demoralised..Never once a happy words that came out from me..Haha

Happiness..? What is happiness? What does happiness derive from..?I no longer felt any true happiness since the day i started on the job that i doesn't like but doesn't have a choice over..I no felt anything since the day she decided to leave..I no longer felt im the ever that once jovial bubbly ME that was always jumping and rattling about..

Sometimes wondering to myself ...what has exactly happen to myself that made my life turn out this way..I will noe...i might noe...but not now..Everytime i started writing my blog, this song (Tong Hua) have to be so timely to be broadcasted now..What a thing...

I have thousands and 1 things to say, feel and write...just din noe where and how to start..the flow just wasn't smooth...I felt..yes,....i felt something...listening to this song agn, i thought of her ...thinking of her in my mind, thinking of what is she doing now, thinking of her smiles, her big hands, her big arms that used to wrapped around me..

Is she? Was she? thinking of me now too....?i dun know..But i am..despite everything you have done to back me off..to make me happy..to make me hurt..i only felt more for you..more and never ending..

Perhaps this is what you called painful love...i think i am afraid to fall in love...afraid of the feeling that i have to face once a r/s is over..it hurts just too much...I wish to just let it go...If only i could...im trying to cope still...trying to get over it at this evening of te day..wishing you be happy no matter where you are..what you are doing...for wadever it becomes, you will still be my ever beloved....eeyore....


"Till time do us part, at the breakwater where we swore and spent our 1st of everthing, we had our love marked on the sand where the sun becomes our witnesses...I miss you lots every mins of the day...Love ya* Kiss*...."


Waiting for my fren to pick me up..ready for lessons yet again..*Phew*..