Spinning Head..Teary Eyes...Images of You...

A Song to Mark Our Story: "Tong Hua" ( Guan Liang )

Today is Wednesday..22 Jun 05 and here i am in the office listening to my mp3 CD while working..Alot of thoughts started flooding into my mind..All your images..your smiles, your eyes, your smirkish look, your ever loving & tender kiss..It just make me feel so much like tearing..Every single words that i wrote was just so felt with tears swelling to the brim of my eyelids..Why am i feeling this way..

I thought i could just keep myself busy and not think anything about it..Perhaps things will just go off and i won't feel so terrible..But a pity, it didn't..the more i tried pushing it away, the more the images of you came back into my mind engulfing all spaces of my brain that i couldn't breathe anymore..It has always been hard to pull myself thru all these emotional tracks..even all the more diffcult now when i know we still love each another deeply..but yet we can't seem to do anything about it..I have so much bottling in me that i wish i could tell you but i couldn't..Even our parting is over the sms..It has since been that long that i heard your voice, your laughter..

Whenever i hear the song "Tong Hua" i will get reminded of our story..a story called our very own..A story noone else can replace..in our little book, you made a big blotch which ended the page with all the lingering memories..Has everything really ended for us..Our love so deep yet seem so far and unreachable..The heart wrenching pain of every single moments that we once spent together can only be felt close in my dreams..

Will you be back one day...i dun noe..." If fate decrees one day down the route, i wish for our love to be rekindled once again".. There are too much things that i no longer know and am unsure of..Everything seem just so far away now..Perhaps i have really been the one not treasuring the r/s, the love, the time,..Now everything just seem too late, you told me..yes..Feeling of Love for each another is still there yet it is already not possible to be back together..Everything is just too late..The pain that was in my heart is no longer describeable..It cuts thru deep that tears & blood just seems to blend as a whole..

I know those are your spite words to make me back off, make me give up, make me 4get you..I wish i could ..at least i won't feel that terrible..I can't...Girl...I still love you that much eversince the day you step into my life, leaving your footprints in my heart forever...

How would i be able to forget you..i can't and i won't want..Perhaps this is how i should carry on with my life..bringing all the memories along with me whenever i go..

One day, when dusk set, i be dere...awaiting for daybreak..awaiting for the sun, the feel and the person..If fate ever will decrees for us..we will eventually see each another dere..the 1st place where our love starts....*kiss


* There is nothing like a seasoned bottled of red wine awaiting to be opened, just with the right opportunity..*