When one's down..everything of hers will be down..

Life just doesn't seem smooth sailing anymore...

A Song that will 4ever remind me of her..a song that she once dedicated to me..Miss Ya Ger..*Hugs* The Song - I Do..(Cherish You) - By 98 Degrees

Why...This few days nothing seems to go right..Feeling so 'suai' lidat...Maciam offend something lidat..think must go *praypray* le..1st - i knock my lips aganist the door, had a big ulcer and swelling which made me look so ugly...urgh..2nd - my dearest beloved handphone got stolen and i hate it! feel so upset not bcos of the handphone but bcoz of the information in my handphone..think it is just so 'suai' for me.. Can't help but feel god just seem to want to take away everything from me...every single bit of her stuffs of her memories left behind with me...Why is that so...The pics in my handphone that was transferred to my PC has alot of our pics taken together ..den PC went bonkers and everything was erased..now hp lost, even those single bit of pics and sms that was sent by her all gone with it...Somehow it just made me feel this wae...is it that coincidental? Everything was just gone lidat...Tho memories of her still stay with me in my heart in my soul but those stuffs are all gone...Made my heart break and was upset for so long..3rd - Guess what..i fell down the stairs outside my house..Shit! that's painful and think i kinda sprain my ankle too...4th - my dog bobby going heart failure anytime will collapse..haiz...what a world..what a thing to happen to me..

Does evrything have to be that drastic...Why is it that life seem so not smooth-sailing..what happen...the moment she left..the moment i wrote here..everything that i wrote just seem only so bad and upsetting never once happiness glow on my face since the day she left...The happy look displayed on my face only shows just how much im affected deep within....


Kc, you are right..the recovery is long and tedious...and i think i have not even seen the light at the end of the tunnel yet..every step that i wanted to take just seem so hard and painful..dragging myself thru every footstep breathing down hard...and telling myself, i just have to carry on and move on...Yes, i might be moving on slowly but despite of all this facts, she is still at the back of my head...

Why..??I seem to be asking myself thousand and 1 things that i couldn't answered...that i am really feeling so tired..Trying to keep myself occupied everydae just so that i wouldn'y think of her...but she will always sip into my mind yet again..Is love that vunerable..or is our love that vunerable? Is our love not strong enuff..or perhaps we really have to let time prove evrything...If one day things are meant to be...it will be..If not letting go will still be the best option..I guess 1 yr frm now...i will still be like now engulfed in memories of her tho maybe moving on abit better..with my life...

I can't...i can't ...i can't get her out..never..y..is her impact so great on me? A Capricon? is that the case..how sad den...y is my life always entwined with capricons..y can't things turn out right...Arghh...

Do i have alot of voice in me?I guess so...some telling me this...some telling me that...

& one voice telling me now...it is time for lunch...! Hehe I guess im being cranky agn after so much...i just cant help it..'Wo Ai Ni Jui Sheng, Ni Ye Yi Yang Ma'?


这辈子不后悔 下辈子不曾在错过你的真爱
不再怕伤害 不再怕期待
该把幸福 找回来 而不是各自缅怀
我会在沿海地带 等着潮汐更改 试着忍耐
以为只要简单的生活 就能平息了脉搏 却忘了在逃什么...
绕着上路 走的累了 去留片刻 要如何取舍
你走路姿态 微笑的神态 见你就是曾错过的真爱...

"I love you deeply and wish that dere will be a day down the road where both of us will see the same light together once again..."