Lots of Unclear Thoughts...

It has been a good weekend thru-out...till i've just seen...


Sometimes i keep wondering to myself wad is exactly happening in my life..Do i still miss her?Yes, i do...at times when i think back of the times that we had spent together..I think i can never be suitable to be in a r/s coz i no longer know how to please the kind that she wants. While msn that dae, we spoke, but the conversation ended quite fast..Was it my fault agn...She wanted someone to share her happiness and woe..don't i want to?Y do i always feel that only she can voice out and not me..And when i did, it will be as if it isn't a good thing...i dun even know what myself an saying now..What irony..

I dun think i know what i could to satisfy what a r/s needed...Perhaps i shld just turn str8 or remain just single..wouldn't that be the best...Perhaps it does..

IF i dun think back, everything would seem just normal coz i would just concentrate entirely on the path that i am working on now..But the moment i think back, everything came flooding back..If one dae we really got back together , would things still be the saem, i guess it will...Coz my commitments now to my path is even in depth..I think unless my partner thinks the same wae as i does if not dey will never be able to understand the path i am going thru..Isn't it so...?

I do have to admit i changed alot in my appearancem outlook, behaviours...Perhaps i might no longer be the one you knew bcoz of the commitment and path that i am taking now..You wanted someone to share your happiness and woe with you ...me 2...but why is it always that you think that it is my self-esteem that is getting in the way...

From the day that i decided to take this path in this industry,i knew there will be alot of changes i had to make to myself but i am still me...that is all i can sae...


With this i end the blog today...am tired...


"Downright to the fact..Love just ain't easy.. wasn't it so...So irony..so hard to guess it thru..Wad cld i do b4 it seems right?Perhaps i hld stop trying for it only be worse..Lead my life and the path that i have chosen..."