I feel glad yet at the same time quiet...

Yesterday was our PartyWorld audition dae and my B went thru...!!!


Yes, Yesterday was our partyworld audition. I went together with my cousin and my B together with a sense of enthusiam looking forward to it..But a pity, both me n B was coughing away yesterday and obviously i'm losing my vocals also...I can onli hope for the best.. My B got Group D No. 2 and i got Group D No. 4. While she went inside for the audition, i was quietly listening outside..den i realise bt it that she has cough, she still sang quite well, within just a few sentences, the bell ring, ya..and she got in ! I was really happy for her..I knew she could do it no doubt at all...Her dream of becoming a star is getting nearer soon..

When it came to be my turn, with my voice this way and my kan cheongness, i actually finish the whole song but pitch went flat and below normal standard..Tho, the judge gave me a 2nd chance to sing another song, i was unable to present a better me out..Thanks was all they said n i left..My B was waiting for me outside...With her by my side, i felt at least much comforted..But a sad thing which is, we came together but we are unable to fight alongside by side together...But i will still 4ever be by her side...

I'm really very happy for her yesterday but somehow in a corner part of me, i felt disappointed...yes, for myself that i can't make it and for not being able to sing alongside her..

Whenever i am with her, there is always a mixed complexity of sadness and happiness...The tinge of happiness derived from her, everytime seeing her laugh so happily away made me feel happy too...But wadever things that we do, she will always be more superior den me...In terms of that, when this kinda feel sets, i can't help but feel alittle disappointed..and despondent and inferior...Tho i'll never bring it out to say but somehow i feel it in me...and this feel only i can fel it coz i never brought it out to anione..Sometimes i wonder does she noe? But nevertheless, putting all this aside, i am still very happy for her, the happiness that i felt for her already exceeded my own unhappines...which is gd i guess...

We went to Geylang to celebrate and eat frog leg porridge men! How nice ti was..Drooling..hahaha


Yesterday B told me that that ernie (ultimate rich guy that was interested in her) wanted to ask her stay in his empty semi-detached anitime she wanted to move out..I was de...diao..i wonder what my fren am thinking but of coz i hope she will not do that, i rather hope she cont with this current bf coz this guy of hers are actually quite a good guy to say..Ernie even said wanted to hold a bdae bash for her on her coming bdae..and she need not do anything but njoy...How sad i was to hear that coz i had intended to throw one bash for her too but i guess theres not a need for me to do that anymore..Since some else wanted to do it for her..How i wish i had the ability too...I had the car too...Den perhaps i be able to work wonders...Tho having $$ is not everything but it is definately a neccessities..If i could drive her around, wouldnt that be gd?


Ohs...what am i thinking, her bdae is on Oct 13th..Any idea what to get for her? I can't think of any..I wanted to do something preferbably handmade so that it is more meaningful but nothing concrete came to my mind..Hey bro, think for me leh..date drawing near le..See what can i get or do up for her k?

HAiz...relatively now B seems to have so many suitors..*count fingers) LAst time everynite call me nw oso cut down le bcuz she need to entertain so many ppl now..Guess she kinda like all these attention..Hmm..As long shes happy abt it, den i will support her quietly lor..

What abt me? Hahaha this couple of daes haven been in contact with Ace and Henry ..One online fren, the other a biker...Both seems gd! Hhahaha bt well, no harm to noe more frens la! Hehe Lenard (Singing fren that was 18 yrs older) has been contacting me hard this few daes men..Think eversince he spoken how he felt, he has me so much more daring..Haiz,,a pity la...hes so much older arbo can really consider..

Nothing much to tok abt le esp abt me...But wish everything goes on well, my voice will come back by this Sat for Gao Fei concert..I hope to do it well too..present myself well and come out of the shadow..When can i ever do that? Perhaps i just deosn't have the confidence enuf to do that...Coz i felt i'm never good enuff esp beside her...Haiz...go look at my friendster testi...Am just so touched upon seeing her write those stuffs coz she rarely write testi for ppl one and she dun normally say what she felt..THis time rd, i appreciate all these that she have wrote..I think imy les blood is still fowing more then my str8 blood...Dun you think so? Iguess so...

With this...I gave her the eternity bow that our friendship will certainly last...Huggs...


Nana