~Upsetting~Dilemma~
Why is things turning out this way?
Felt so upset always after a quarrel session with mum. She told me i have changed? Im no longer like b4..I always come home late now and they dun even get to see me very often especially my dad..Hmm, what should i say? Is it really bcoz of B? Is it really beoz that they are Malaysian and their parents are all not in Sg..That is why they are more free to anithing that they want and not me? Coz i have a family to commit to..I must always rem that i have parents and brothers at home. Not being at home so often shouldn't be the wae at all..At least to my mum, this is how they feel? Is that really the case?
Ya, i do admit i wana spend more time with B..And i noe i am already doing it at the expense of my family..Is it bcoz i "ai wan" that is y i kip wanting to be outside instead of home? Or it is just my character? I dunnoe..i onli noe recently we have been having quarrels & bickering over all this stuffs about me being not at home treating home like a hotel?
I went to the fortune teller and i remember something that he said suddenly..He said i intend to shift out of my house next yr iszit? Hmm...At that point of time, i really din think much of it..Upon thinking bck now, it might be true after all..Hmm..Dilemma..
Im no longer a kid, i dunnoe...i want time with my family too..but it ishard to make them understand actually that's how i felt..Haiz..nothg else to sae..tired..end here...
If given a choice, what exactly would i do, and what decision would i make? I dunnoe..
Felt so upset always after a quarrel session with mum. She told me i have changed? Im no longer like b4..I always come home late now and they dun even get to see me very often especially my dad..Hmm, what should i say? Is it really bcoz of B? Is it really beoz that they are Malaysian and their parents are all not in Sg..That is why they are more free to anithing that they want and not me? Coz i have a family to commit to..I must always rem that i have parents and brothers at home. Not being at home so often shouldn't be the wae at all..At least to my mum, this is how they feel? Is that really the case?
Ya, i do admit i wana spend more time with B..And i noe i am already doing it at the expense of my family..Is it bcoz i "ai wan" that is y i kip wanting to be outside instead of home? Or it is just my character? I dunnoe..i onli noe recently we have been having quarrels & bickering over all this stuffs about me being not at home treating home like a hotel?
I went to the fortune teller and i remember something that he said suddenly..He said i intend to shift out of my house next yr iszit? Hmm...At that point of time, i really din think much of it..Upon thinking bck now, it might be true after all..Hmm..Dilemma..
Im no longer a kid, i dunnoe...i want time with my family too..but it ishard to make them understand actually that's how i felt..Haiz..nothg else to sae..tired..end here...
If given a choice, what exactly would i do, and what decision would i make? I dunnoe..
posted by Ferina at 10/31/2005 08:45:00 AM
2 Comments:
Who said life is easy to begin with, let alone live. You own your life, you start it with yourself then can you think of others. If you can't find happiness in you, how can you spread and share or give the happiness to others. Many a time, there are broken lines in front... don't just stand there and sulk over them, hoping something will happen so that you won't be doing things you don't like to cross over them to the other side. Sit down, let your brain runs. Nothing's impossible. There's a will, there's a way. :)
Thanks alot..Wens free for coffee? Think ah b and her bf very rocky le..eversince she noes a damm rich fellow.and really 12 yrs older..bt kinda anormal looking guy buy damm damm rich..own 4 cars, (posh, evo 9, BMW & 1 mre i 4got)..haiz...dunnoe wad to sae..she told me, bread is still mre impt den love..hmm...true to a certain aspect i guess...haiz...aniwae..i finally chnge job..saw ya buzz me bt was buzy la ..tts y...come out some dae ya..tk cre..:)
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