i am not happy ..Y...

I am not asking for any expectations...but yet i dun feel appreciated..

More of the times i dun wana ask for any returns nor xpectations..i just want to feel appreciated for evrything..but i dun feel any..most of the time granted..is that the case? At least that's wad i felt..

i dun feel happy at all today..i can't handle my own thoughts ... You can totally push away all that i've said and move on to something else so easily w/o considering at all how i actually fely..& here i am worrying for your everything...Sometimes i just felt, is it just so wrong for me to voice out anithing? I dun need any returns back from you..but at least show some appreciation..I only felt as if when you need me, u will look for me if not i will not be needed and you will turn to others..It is very upsetting on me..I du feel good u noe..i nv ask anithing frm u b4 except for your happiness and stand by you always..but i hope you give me just a little bit of respect as a sis lor..It really upsets me alot lor..

For the whole of today, i have been msging you not bcuz i want to make myself seem irritating but bcuz i care and bother abt your stuff and everything..asking you did u go wrk 2dae, worrying you doesnt have enuff time for your test ..but i din rx any reply at all...any one refute frm u was "Now i call u aldy wad"...Dun u realise my mood dere and den...it cuts..is it that difficult to reply to just a msg rather den see me msging u and "fan" u abt the same qns..and in the end, itz thru WOM that i realise you are actually at home and and definatelty wil haev sufficent time to go to the doc..I/m not trying to rule or minitor ur life..You are my sis that i care for that is y i wld bother to this extent...I just hope you understand..

You will nv noe and understand wen im angry..coz you will not sense that im actually unhappy..i just felt as long u need me, i'll be dere..nthg else..HOw i felt & react does it bother u? Or u chose to ignore it?All this words am i suppose to tell u?yes, i intended to msg u...but in the end, i withdraw..all bcuz i always chose to kip everything in me..that is y u nv seem to noe anithing ...but that doesnt mean it nv exist..have you ever bother to try to find out y am i unhappy at times ? or try to put in mre effort to understand me better? sometimes i wonder...wad am i exactly to u..

For so many time, i wanna ask, i doesnt have the guts to..i have nv heard it frm your mouth at all...Wadever it is, wad cld i do...I am not your anibody..im just someone behind the closet behind supporting u no matter wad you do..perhaps i dun even hold a candle to james ur di....Alot of times, i just kept quiet coz i respected you and doesnt want to refute anithing that u said ..and y am i feeling tis wae in me , u will ask..coz i shld understand u better den ani1 else..Yes, i do...u just jump a hair i will noe wad you are thingking...it is precisely bcuz of tis that i understand you too well..that i noe for me, i will nv see the appreciation or words cuming frm your mouth...tho i noe you do appreciate, bt everything, i just have to sense it myself...

B, i really hope you treasure me as ur sis...Thks...


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