There is really a difference...

Is our friendship and sisterhood really gona fade off this wae bcoz of the time constraints in each and eveyone of us....

There is really a differrence now in all sisters of us...we seem to have drifted apart..and seriously i dun feel good in me..Dunnoe y...i just felt wasted, upset..whn everybody have each of their own job, everybody started drifting apart..did we all make an effort to at least mit up? All our schedules are so tight...and the sis that matter most to me was alicia..Frm me noeing her the 1st till now..we seem to have drifted vr far apart..she no longer call and chat with me..she no longer msg nor reply to my msg animre...she doesnt share alot of her things wf me animre..we seem to have ease alot of communications...which are just so important and essential to our friendship too..

i treasure alicia, gene alot..but seeing the moment i got this career of mine, everybody oso getting a job on hand le..we seem to have no time for one another..tho itz understandable bcoz of job, this is bound to happen, but i cnt help but feel so compressed and suppressed in me..im actually in fact so afraid of losing them..Esp b/w me and alicia...I kenw her for so long, went thru so much wf her..i realli hope i will still be as that wel with her be it yrs down the road..ami able to do that? i dunnoe...i cnt figure it out..

ami thinking toom uch int othings? i dunnoe ...things that i thought always tentatively tend to happen..and i hate that kinda feel..am i really thinking too much? iF we are really good and close frens, we will still be no matter how long we never contact...den y am i still afraid...i dunnoe myself oso...


Recently at work , rin kip telling me abt alot of things and things that i might haven even discover myself frm...ni wonder, and i ponder..i noe wad shes trying to sae and i noe she feel how i felt..But alot of other things in my life, is others really able to understand?whn will my Mr/Mrs Right come?Wad am i or shld i go for?Whn will i find myself?

sometimes i feel that i think and ponder for too long ..and im in fact tired..i wana leave things that wae it is..am i rite to do that? Or shld i do that? i really wonder y and how...

Whn i start writing, all the more i realise i dunnoe wad to write ...How the thoughts jsut seem to stuck in my head....maybe if u use a knife open up my skull...all the answers shld be dere..But now at thsi pt of time, i shall eas eden...


For i aldy dinoe wad i myself am trying to write animre le...But one thing for sure...i misses "her" alot...How i wish and hope our hood and bond will alwasy goes on and on...Take care ya ah b,,,No matter whr u are, i will be dere if not silently at a corner supporting u always ..... u will never be forgotton and whenever u are in need, i will sur ebe dere for ya...always....

Am i always a supporter onli? I guess i am...i just want some ppl to be happy ....Take cre b, i love and will teng u always...:)


Whn feelings seem just so extremely in u...ita justso hard to pull everthing out from ur thoughts and heart..Just wad am i a person, y wldnt i understand myself and noe just wad an identity am i ...I hope to find and unravelled this soon...Hugs...my dear b, do take care and ya, always be dere for ya...:)