Some things are just meant to be this way...

What exactly that lead to this today...

For so long i've been pondering, am i comparing or are you really no longer the same? You are still like b4 never liking to say nor voce things out...The us now are so not as close as b4..Dun tell me you cant sense anithing at all..Y is this so? Actually i dun even noe it myself but it jst seem to happen...

I've been thinking it thru and thru what exactly hapn..thinking over all those things that we did together in the past..How happy we were...You were right to say that frens passes thru every indivudual life as a short phase..perhaps this was really so for your thinking...I kip thiking bck abt our past coz it was just so memorable and i was so much happier..Perhaps i really regarded you more impt then u ..Perhaps to you, im just a passing phase in your life..

I once told you that everybody was looking at us with eyes suspicion, we are so close so fast so sudden..can our friendship really last?I told you i'm actually afraid that this 1 dae will come that we will no longer be as close and our friendship will eventually fade off...and i told you i'm afriad to see that...At that time, you told me, oyu was afraid too..at least back den, i knew ...you really care abt our friendship...

And now i really felt the time seems to come..our friendship seems to fade off not as close as b4..and im clueless..are we just not that strong? Are you really oblivous and totally cnt feel that now we doesnt seem to have much to tok abt? I dunnoe...

It is just this feel..i never wana give up on us..and alot of times, alot of things takes 2 hands to clap..2 person to work it out..I saw it in you in the past...But no longer..perhaps you are alreadi too engrossed in other things and ppl to realise that..If you arer really happi this wae, i wish you all the best..Aniwae wadever i do frm the past till now is all for you..if only you see it..

I felt so tired..sister you are to me...but have you seriously regarded me as..Im sensitive ya..but i believe theres always a reason y i will be sensitive and dere is some truth in it if noti wldnt feel it that wae..i really hope one dae you wld rem everything that you once said to me and regain wad you oonce are..my dear sis..the one that i knew, caring and tho not sensitive but at least i can feel it...the person i once knew..

I miss those daes...i really do...


BB?

i'm Sorry..

I'm sorry if ive said or done anithing to hurt you or make it seem so nan ting and make you feel uncomfortable..Perhaps to you i always seem to write all this lengthly "bo liao" things but to me, it is actually the only way i could make myself vent out wadever that i have in me so long..

I'm really sorry and i hope our friendship is strong enuff to withstand all this storm..I always only wish and want the best for you..anf nthing else..Tho i might be blunt at times..but ive never meant you any harm..Hope you understand that..

B, I'm sorry...

Nana BB

The real true facts abt "Truth & Dare"....

The fact abt truth & dare is always that heartless & unfeeling...

Y would i put it this wae..Today..9th Jan 06..Me, ah B, andrew & fanny played the truth & dare in ah B house..Asked abt alot of qns..Perhaps alot of qs i aldy knew it in me bt i just din want to face it..Andrew asked alot of qns to ah b jus so to mk me uderstand that my worries are just unfounded...

Yes, disappointed was the word to describe just how i felt towards every ans that she gave..Tho i din expect any returns from her..But still, it hurts to know it frm her that i didnt nid to do anithing at all..Y a i being so worried abt her life and stuff when in fact she could take care of herself..Y should i want to bother myself so much..B, if u ever know that and understand me well enuff, u will know it is not an excuse to use use you as me not being able to focus on my work..If u knew me well enuff, u will know that i just care for you too much..Everytime you mentioned that who who is so good to you n you are that very touched, i seriously felt happy for u ..coz i know at least you really does have alot of ppl caring for you...less me or not doesnt really matter much..Im not a very expressive person hence alot of times i would not be very open and let u noe that actually alot of things does matters to me..Sometimes i do wonder and thought, do u appreciate everything tt ive done for you?Perhaps bcoz i cnt feel it ...thats y i felt i seem just so extra at times..am i being too sensitive or you are not sensitive enuff to how i felt?i does wonder at times..So wad if im feeling upset and disappointed...ou will never know the reason y..for one dae tt i nv sae u will nv no..


If life is ever that perfect, dere wldnt be any human beings ard...If there are human beings ad, deres bound to have emotional factor attached with it..Jus how much u see me as, i dunnoe...I ill nv ask for ani returns frm u no matter hw much tt i did to treat u cz i always believe in giving my all and everything to my frens..least to sae u are my sis..i will definately teng you more den anione else..But do u see it or do u think it is just nothing to you? Yes, everything that i do is all out of my own willingness and y wld i do all tis is all bcoz i wana see u being happy...But at times, have you ever thought wen im unhappy?Hve you come to realise that at times im happy...You cnt seem to be able to sense that if i din sae much...How i wish you be alil sensitive at times...

It is hard to find best sis in this life for it is just do ard to find 2 gam key person...So i really hope you treasure me as a indivudual and not kip thinking that wadever that i do is just an excuse to escape things..No, im not..If not that im worried for your well being, i wld not have bothered..Y wld i have bothered bcoz you are my dearest sis...You never thought of that b4 i guess..

Accomodating your everything ive done that as the best as a sis could do..did u ever do anithing that i would so touched..Yes in fact just once, your valuable testimonial..the onli thing i appreciate so much..it is bcz of tis tt i deem u as a valuable sis tt i cld kip 4ever..n i believe that you are...


Down to the very bottom fact, i would still sae, yu are my vr beloved sis, and nothing otheres said could changed the fact unless you are the one who change..To me everything in this life is predestined...un u think so...I oe our sisterhood dun just end here..I hope it will cont 4ever as long as we live...

To You My Beloved sis, nthg too great in the world that we couldnt overcome and i hope our friendship will not be affected just bcoz of a game...I hope you dearly understand that no matter how insensitive you are...I wish you well and best always..